I haven't written for a while because life has been a little crazy. It's not just life that's crazy, I think I, myself, am teetering on the edge of crazy as well.
Things I like this week: the new OPI Hong Kong collection, chocolate--any kind of chocolate, and my new "suddenly skinny" cami. Things I dread/dislike this week: being evaluated/judged, potholes (ARG!), and banana clip comebacks (I saw two this weekend on older ladies--somebody should really let them know it's 2010 now).
Student teaching is harder than I ever thought it would be. I'm sick to my stomach with anxiety most mornings, and unfortunately, middle schoolers sense weakness so they can prey on it. I also happened to pick a very bad month to stop taking my PMDD medication. I've tested and now I know that it was definitely not a placebo effect that was keeping me happy. I can start taking my "happy" pills again in a few days so hopefully I'll bounce back somewhat. Knowing that I'm not doing as well as I should be with my teaching is also making me more anxious and very depressed and that leads to less than energetic teaching which circles back around to being more depressed and so on and so forth. Maybe this is just the PMS and the frustration talking but I just want to curl up in a ball and cry for about a week straight....Or maybe a tropical vacation instead.
BTW, I know you're all wondering about the computer guy. Yes, we're still dating, but I haven't decided how I feel about him except that I really like spending time with him and I don't want to stop talking to him or hanging out yet. He's still kind of shy and he hasn't even tried to hold my hand let alone kiss me yet! I would probably know faster if this could work out by kissing him to see if there are any sparks, but for now I'm just enjoying getting to know the company.
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